Sunday, April 22, 2018

Sleepless in Hau’ula

November 28, 2009 by  
Filed under Patricia's Journey

In the Treatment #5 blog, I mentioned the ongoing lack of sleep that has plagued me.  After a month of 6-7 hours of sleep per night, my body became exhausted last week, so much so that I couldn’t write.  Any blog would have been short and sweet- “I’m too tired to write!”.  For me a lack of sleep is similar to looking through life with a magnifying glass held in front of your eyes. Everything looks bigger and out of proportion.  I was losing my groundedness, prone to crying spells and beginning to dance with fears. Fears that the real reason I was feeling bad was because my body wasn’t responding to treatment and it would require more intense treatment or more rounds of the current one and on and on.  Give the ego a fear and it will make a broadway musical out of it.

By Saturday, November 21, after three different sleep aid prescriptions and as many natural remedies, I was at a loss as to what to do.  At that moment of surrender, it occurred to me that I had been going after the effect of sleeplessness and not the cause.  Yes, the steroids affect sleep but only for a few days after treatment.  Something else was going on. I wasn’t falling asleep easily, and when I did, I couldn’t stay asleep.  I had been so caught up in treating the symptoms, I had not prayed for Guidance.  I prayed that God would reveal whatever I needed to know about this.  For support, I called my energy worker Dr. Sandy and my Shaman Charlene and set up appointments over the next two days.

On Sunday Charlene and I worked long distance on clearing and balancing my chakras.  She mentioned that insomnia is often typical of a fear of death. Whoa.  As soon as she said the word fear, I could feel the truth in my body of what she was saying. The body always answers.  There was a fear of falling asleep and a fear of staying asleep. There was an underlying fear that was creating a situation where my body could not rest.  Most often, simply in shining the light of recognition and acknowledgement on a fear it can begin to dissipate.  Had I been choosing life because there was a fear of death?  One of the many things Charlene has taught me is I don’t always need to know why.  The question why has always provided me with a lot of mental gymnastics and few answers.  Neale Donald Walsh has this to say about asking why:

...that “Why is this happening?” is the most useless

question in the Universe.

The only really profitable question is, “What?” As in,

“What do I choose now?” This question empowers.

The “why” question simply perplexes, and rarely

satisfies even when it gets a good answer.

So don’t try to “figure it out.” Stop it. Just focus on

what you now wish to create. Keep moving forward.

There’s nothing behind you that can possibly serve

you better than your highest thoughts about tomorrow.

That night I did not take any sleep medication and was able to get the 6-7 hours sleep naturally. Monday morning, Dr. Sandy and I finished clearing the energy in my field that was holding the fear in place.  Monday night I slept 11 hours naturally!  Since then I have slept restfully and peacefully every night without sleep aids of any kind.  Now that is something to write about!


3 Responses to “Sleepless in Hau’ula”
  1. Lisa says:

    Another powerful update. I love the line “Give the ego a fear and it will make a broadway musical out of it.” That rings so true for me. Starting down that path of fear spirals out of control so quickly and easily. Thanks for the reminder.
    Why, why, why – isn’t that always the question and stories are the answer and they don’t mean anything anyway. So the choice is mine and I choose my next possibility.
    I love you my friend!

  2. Jan Johnson says:

    Hi Love!
    I was uploading some pictures this weekend and something intuitively in me said to send this to you. I guess because of all the transformations you continue to have! You simply amaze me with your courage and determination. Your website is such a gift to all. I have to laugh as I had a flashback of when we went up to the mountains with Linda Perrin to do the group!! What a trip that was! Isn’t it fun to continually see ourselves as a yardstick of our growth. Love you, Jan the picture….it is from my butterfly garden and this year I got the Queens—monarchs! Way cool!


  3. Jan Johnson says:

    Hi Me Again! Well, I just have to have my 2 cents worth evidently! Steven Farmer, Phd (married to Doreen Virtue) from his book Animal Spirit Guides on Hummingbirds: “If hummingbird shows up it means: You need to be very flexible with the twists and turns your life will take in the next few days. Put more emotional sweetness in your life…you need it. You’re going through some very heart-opening kinds of experiences, and you’ll quite naturally draw more and more love into your life. Openly express the love you have and feel for those important people in your life. Give yourself the gift of as many flowers as you can, spread them around your home, and enjoy their sight and fragrance throughout the days to come.

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